I don’t know about you but I am all over the place. I am drained, overwhelmed and never been exhausted ever in my life.
Emotionally, physically and mentally, it definitely has been a challenging year for me.
But these are the times when we learn the most. This was when I did learn the most packed in a small amount of time.
I grew fast, faster than ever.
Learned to self regulate, learned to appreciate what is, learned to be calm, learned to conquer my fears.
Working from home, playing the teacher role, becoming a student, a playmate, a friend to my son, a confidant to myself, a motivator.. All these, I never fathomed was in me.
Our body is an attestation of a divine intelligence.
Our bodies adapt to change.
I never thought that I had so much patience in me. That I am this adaptable and strong and will powered.
What I have learned is when you are put in a situation where you have no choice but to act, you just act. You just go for it and take in what ever you can take in, do what ever you can do.
Accept what is and observe. You don’t need to like it, just see it and trust the process.
Sometimes we are in a situation where it feels stifling. Nothing that we can do much and feeling restrained.
But all we need to do is let it be and just let it go. Relax and imagine that we are just this tiny fragment in this vast universe.
This brings us in perspective as to who we are. That we are this fragile being that has no control over death.
So ironically, the way to live life is to think of death. That we only have a limited amount of time in us.
That, if you are having a hard time moving on, ask yourself, will it matter five years from now?
Will it matter if I am not around? We need to be reminded that we are replaceable, dispensable no matter what and that all we can leave are footprints of good memories. Of how well we spent our time as travelers.
How do you force your self to get up and act? There is no motivator for this except for you but I would say creating a system of habits is key than using will power. it will definitely be hard in the beginning as always it is, but give it about a week and surely you will feel the difference. JUST ACT.
In the end, difficulties are opportunities and strength does not come from easy. No one is exempt from pain, everyone will experience them in their lifetime and it is up to how we would manage that pain and bounce back afterwards.